***********FOODOLOGY******
What is your salad dressing of choice?
vinagrette

What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
can't afford restaurants. Grad student!!

What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
broccoli

What are your pizza toppings of choice?
all the meatz

What do you like to put on your toast?
butter

***********TECHNOLOGY***************
How many televisions are in your house?
I am a nomad. I do, however, own one TV. Anybody want?

What color is your cellphone?
black.

Do you have an iPod?
a touch and a shuffle, and never anything in between!

***************BIOLOGY******************

Are you right-handed or left-handed?
right

Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
no

What is the last heavy item you lifted?
dunno

Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
no

************BULLOLOGY**************
If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
never!

If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
i love my name and will NEVER change it. Sorry, husband of the future, but it's too late, i've been published!

Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
sure, why not

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************
Season?
fall

Holiday?
easter because of paella and family

Day of the week?
tuesday, i don't even know why. As a kid it reminded me of freshness, the colour green and the number 7. I'm weird.

Month?
April!

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************
Missing someone?
the boy...

Mood?
a little thesis-imprisoned but nothing terrible

What are you listening to?
I can hear my grandpa talking to his ladyfriend on the phone "I miss you too, dear." Aw!

Current worry?
That I might not be able to start my PhD right in Sept because my thesis isn't finished yet ... one worry at a time though.

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************
First place you went this morning?
to my laptop to write my thesis.

What's the last movie you saw?
What's a movie?

***************OTHER-OLOGY*****************
Do you have any flipflops?
sure, who doesn't

Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
When I got caught going over 50 km over on the 401. Scariest. Fucking. Cop. Ever. That's why I don't have phd funding, it happened right when that shit was due and I was too traumatized for 2 months from it to really do anything but stream episodes of one tree hill, lie in my bed, cry, and hit the bong. * shudder *

Last person you talked to?
my cousin who is getting married, on the phone - she asked me to greet people at her wedding in 2 weeks! Squee!

Last person you hugged?
my grandpa. I told him "I love you so much" after our weird unsettling convo about what is going to happen to all the property when he is dead...what am I going to do with all these secrets...

Do you always answer your phone?
rarely these days. I haven't even charged it since I started the 3rd thesis re-write.

It's four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
my sister or my boyfriend.

If you could change your eye color what would it be?
a deeper green to go with my red hair. Or some kind of eerie wolf-like ice blue. So many eye colours are so beautiful!

What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
? I'm Canadian. Maybe this is an american thing. I don't drink pop. But sometimes i put a peppermint shot in my starbucks green tea frappucino!

Do you own a digital camera?
yes, a beautiful nikon one that my grandpa got me as a grad present.

Have you ever had a pet fish?
many goldfish ... they were all kind of suicidal!

Favorite Christmas song(s)
ach, i'm kind of a scrooge. I like christmas for the fam stuff but presents? decorations? songs? yeesh, spare me. if only I was culturally jewish, I'd have a great excuse ...lol

What's on your wish list for your birthday?
a masters? A lifeplan? 

Can you do push ups?
like a freakin million! :P 

Can you do the splits?
on a good day

Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
so excited!!! I'm such a nutty futurist...I am obsessed with predicting trends, the internet in general, learning about pop culture from ages ago that predicted the future and seeing how much they got right...

Do you have any saved texts?
no

Have you ever been in a car accident?
a tiny one that cost my dad $1200 to fix my steering column. Eep! Sorry dad... i'll pay ya back one of these days...

Do you have an accent?
isn't that kind of relative? I suppose to some I do, to some I don't.

What is the last movie to make you cry?
total movie/TV ban. Must. Get. Masters.

Plans tonight?
See above. In fact I really shouldn't be doing this!

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
Probably after my speeding ticket ... but not really even then, I'm pretty darn good at seeing the silver lining and making myself happy. Mad skillz!!

Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
Energy drink. Pack o smokes. Nothin else.

Have you ever been given roses?
My aunt ordered me a dozen roses from across the country and had them delivered to my house on my twelfth birfday. I've never really had a chivalrous boyfriend before but oh boy, I think I do now!! Here come the roses...

Met someone who changed your life?
everyone I meet changes my life. I love my friends so much!!

How will you ring in the New Year?
celebrating ~8 months of amazingness with my new boyfriend who is amazing. Eating venison that we hunted together. Drunk? Probably! 

What song represents you?
whatever song I am obsessed with at the time ... it changes almost daily. Love music! (lol ... love music! Love boyfriend! Love family! Love friends! Love self! If you can't tell I am the most sickeningly over-exhuberant happiest person of ever)

Name two people who might complete this?
i dont' really have any lj friends, so probably nobody specifically after me?

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
if it was temporary, definitely. If it was permanent, not for anything. I love the present! Future, here I come!

Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
I've never dated anybody for less than a year. high school sweetheart for 4, undergrad boyfriends for sort of ... 6 and 2 .. eesh .. overlappage. This one, only 4 months so far but I swear I never want to leave him! Or cheat on him. Doing fab so far, cmon keep it up!! * cheerleads self *

Do you have any tattoos/piercings?
a sexy piercing ;)    ..don't really think highly of tattoos. Maybe i'd get one that nobody would ever see. Like my piercing!

Does anyone love you?
I love so many people so amazingly much, I'm pretty sure it's highly reciprocated.

Would you be a pirate?
no .. that's a stupid question! Like, for halloween?

What songs do you sing in the shower?
I don't really sing in the shower. I wonder why... hmm, I should start!

Ever had someone sing to you?
my old boyfriend who i was with for 6 years would always write beautiful songs for guitar and sing them in the same room as me ..but I don't think any of them were * to * me.

Do you like to cuddle?
and how!

Have you held hands with anyone today?
no : (

Who was the last person you took a picture of?
myself, during internet sexytime with the boy ;)

Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
new, but the few old friends I still have are who I love the most.

Do you like pulpy orange juice?
love

What is something your friends make fun of you for?
being too excitable, being a big biology nerd, being super high sometimes :P  (though I'm amazing and have not touched the stuff since I started the thesis-grind)


This was a fun distraction, thanks meredith!

Alternatively terrible and amazing day: meeting with supervisor, seemed to go well, got some good advice, and a kind "I'll check into your data for you" favour offered. WRONG. bad idea. He found some 'nifty' way to split up my data and ended up with vastly different results. Lovely. Not that I'm not pretty sure he's onto something, but damn do I wish I could get those 5 days of my life back where I wrote a huge chunk of my thesis (quite fucking well, at that) that I will never use. Argh. Oh well, I guess I wasted most of those days listening to TED talks and rando podcasts anyways. It's all I seem to want to do these days. And read Czech plays about robots taking over the world. R.U.R. Very cool. SO cool. Want to read more Capek plays and novels. War with the Newts! Who wouldn't want to read that... hah. So clearly I'm distracted, anything to distract me from thesis-writing. I love how I get my most creative and general knowledge-grabby when I have something else important I'm supposed to be using my brain / time / effort for. It's a lot of fun really. Shameless procrastinator, right here. Unapologetic. I am going to listen to TED talks about robots until I pass out, then wake up at ten and re-write this goddamn thesis. Goddamn!

Poor boyfriend, had to chat-listen to me almost freak out about the re-write. Jesus I have my work cut out for me though.... Fuuuck.

Luckily gymnastics tonight was the awesomest thing that ever awesomed. I'm improving on so many key skills, I'm totally psyched. And I seem to be gaining / toning muscle super fast because all of the conditioning exercises - chin ups, sit ups, push ups of various types, other painful things with the slid-ey mats... are getting easier and easier! Yay! Soon I will be able to do a kip on the bars, a backflip on the tramp, front tucks, round-off-back handsprings on the floor, and oh yeah, be crazy buff! Nice. So I can't complain too much about the fucking fucking thesis ... hmm.. maybe I can. Just watch me. Haha! Tomorrow it will be half-done... and the ex's birthday. At a sweet restaurant, with parents and brother. My life is hilarious! Ha! Whatev, so successful on the not hooking up with him front. Am proud of self. * pats back * Weeks till moving, everything will be different then... excited!

I think

Am wildly in love with new boy. Can't really call him new boy anymore I guess, it's been 3 months now. I'm half "Is that all?!?!" and half "shit it's been that long already?!?" Mostly is that all ... I feel like we already know each other so well, like we're a part of each other. Every time we are together it's 'big plans' this and 'I will build you a treehouse' that and 'i will fix ___ moderately in need of improvement thing next time I am here.' Wow. I can't believe my luck. From making out in a basement shower of an unoccupied rental house, not even sure if he might in fact have a wife and thinking "in this exact freaking precise moment I all of a sudden realize that this is NOT just innocent vacation fun. Oh good Christ. This is something." to "we will alternate who comes to visit the other" and "with my mad business skills I can make us rich." I don't doubt it for a second.  He wants me to go ahead with my phd ... says i'll likely get a good job afterward, even if not in academia. He will probably move closer to me after his school is done...though we are not far away anyway.. 5 hours. Aaahhhh..... what miraculous thing did I do in a past life to deserve this... Kidding... but seriously. I owe you one, universe.

His only worry with dating me and being twelve years older was "dating a younger girl .. she might not be ready for marriage and a family as soon as I am... I don't want to be too old when I have kids." OMG. So you are gorgeous, speak a million languages, do every kickass / extreme sport that I also do, are ridiculously incredible in bed, hopelessly and sexily obsessed with logic and reason as badly as I am, and will very likely be highly successful after getting your CMA ... AND if I stay with you I don't have to wait ten or whatever years before it is feasible and appropriate that I have children?? Shiiit. Wow. Damn. Obviously I want to / have to savour these first few months - and I am, I will, I love that we have so many firsts still to share together - but part of me wants to just fastforward to the end of the crazy endorphin rush, to that brain chemical-light inevitability where I realize I'm crazy about him anyway... I love that I met him while he's a poor student like me with lines of credit and lofty ambitions rather than a few years from now ... recession or no. This dude can and will hustle.

Not that I wouldn't adore him just as much if he were a penniless future biologist like me ... but seriously. He is going to be a management accountant. I never pictured myself with someone with that kind of career...I guess I've never pictured myself with any kind of 'real person' because all the boys I've dated have been undergrads or grad students. He won't have to move to godknowswhere to get a job, like an academic partner would. I love all the parallels between our personalities despite the differences in our fields. Highlights how we each have skills that are so transferrable. He's so smart and serious but also incredibly silly and funny, not afraid to just be goofy and kidlike..hahaha in NO way acts like what I thought a 'real person' or 'adult' of 36 would act. Hah. He teases me and then apologizes for it. "I bug you because I like you..." Adorable. He is so easy to talk to because we both think so analytically and in such similar ways. He looks for the most efficient way to do everything, he's always correcting me on random little things and telling me how I could be doing things better. It sounds weird but that's a really important thing I have always demanded of partners - anyone I have been with who doesn't kind of insist near-perfection from me in a lot of ways just gets on my nerves and I lose respect for them. I need a partner with a strong personality and a lot to teach me, otherwise I lose interest and/or start pushing them around. Probably a terrible trait but at least I recognize it! Anyway, at 36 (to my 24) he definitely has a lot to teach me ... and I feel like his experience / practicality / ever-apparent intelligence and amazing talent keeps the bolder parts of my personality in check, makes me constantly strive for excellence athletically / academically / personally... and keeps me running back for more...

I think I have found a good one.

* swoon * 

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN people right now.
 
1) It's for real this time. I'm not taking you back when you start to miss me.
2) you really need to get a job - so you can take care of yourself, but also so I don't feel guilty about not being able to help you with groceries anymore
3) I think your kid has a flat head because you were lazy
4) I'm so proud of you!
5) If you would just dump your long distance GF I would fuck you like twelve times a day and we would both be really happy for a while
6) I love you but you are the FLAKIEST friend EVER
7) Get a life
8) do NOT go back to that guy, you said yourself he was stupid! Stupid people are the worst!
9) you really do owe me ... i hope you pull through on that one!
10) Your son just lost out big time. I love you guys and I really wish I could bring your grandkids into the world someday.

NINE things about yourself.
1) I love nature and everything about it, everrrrr ... love to be outside.
2) I am an evolutionary biologist
3) I am an atheist
4) the day I became an atheist, my EXTREME, DEBILITATING OCD disappeared. Completely. Magical thinking be damned!
5) i don't want to have kids anytime soon, but almost everything I do is with them in mind. I realized this when I was 16. Maybe it's intensified since I've become a biologist.
6) On that note, I'm starting to eat only organic food.
7) I'm working out again and proud of how athletic I inherently am.
8) I want to be more crafty
9) I want to learn to play drums :)

EIGHT ways to win your heart.

1) make me laugh
2) make me laugh harder
3) watch futurama
4) teach me things
5) always challenge me to be better
6) play me songs. Or don't.
7) converse with me indulgently
8) internet random knowledge parties!

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot.

1) friends
2) love
3) the future
4) my future children and preparing my body and mind for them
5) school
6) academia
7) finding a good father for my children

SIX things you do before you fall asleep.

1) internet
2) smoke a j probably, if i'm with friends or the (old) boy
3) cuddle (used to .. sniff)
4) find my teddy bear
5) snuggle into lots of blankets and pillows
6) set my alarm


FIVE people who mean a lot to you at the moment.

1) B-man
2) D
3) T
4) C
5) my sis

FOUR things you really enjoy doing.

1) partying with my amazing friends
2) visiting my cousin
3) interwebbing
4) reading

THREE things you absolutely hate.

1) people who don't "believe" in evolution. As if evolution is something you can either "believe in" or not. Evolution happened and continues to happen, it doesn't care if you believe it or not! If there is a god I would hope he or she or it would be powerful enough to come up with a process for different forms of life to shift and change and adapt to each other and not just static species (which are barely defineable anyway. Jeez.).
2) people who think that gay people shouldn't enjoy the same rights as straight people. Nobody is forcing you to get gay married!
3) people who think that all atheists are as extreme and short-sighted as richard dawkins. I'm comfortable admitting that there are things I don't know about the universe and never will, thanks!

TWO places you want to travel to that you've never been before.

1) Brazil
2) Australia

ONE confession.

1) I may never have the self-discipline to do the job I am essentially training for, and hope to one day do

My cousin had the baby a week ago day. Well, I guess his girlfriend deserves 99.99 percent of the 'having the baby' credit, but he was very much there holding her hand and taking her shit and giving her labour massages, and he's definitely walking around in a daze with a giant smile on his face, so I think he deserves some kudos. He's 21, she turned 18 the day she gave birth, they met in a group home. Considering where he was this time last year, I'd say they're in a pretty awesome place. I love being around them because they're so much smarter and more insightful than everyone gives them credit for, and I've always just loved to watch kids learn things - 4 year old kids, 21 year old kids, I love watching people come to their own conclusions - like today, when Caitlin told me the preemie in the incubator next to Jaden's had died. I knew it would the moment I saw it - 1 pound, 3 ounces, tiny little fetal thing, not at all ready for the world. Caitlin started to say that she knew it must be a mean thing to think, but perhaps that baby was in a lot of pain, and if it could think in words it might know that dying was a better thing. It was really something to watch her come to that conclusion, maybe for the first time. And with a baby of her own that maybe, almost, didn't make it. He was all hooked up to stuff for a little while - he had whatever it's called where you don't grow fast enough in utero, so they induce - but now instead of January he's probably going home the day after tomorrow. They just have to stay a few days in a care-by-parent room, and then they can take him home. I'm so excited that my new little cousin will be with us for Christmas :)

I think Caitlin's going to realize pretty quick that she chose the right family to get knocked up in. We're pretty much a "children are raised by the village" bunch. OK, the village may be a bit here and there, separated by a few stretches of highway - but that baby will get everything he needs, and then some.